Hello my Deviant lovelies....

I'm very bored in class so I thought I would talk to you.

What's up with my life? What's worth telling? Well... 21 actual schools days left (give or take a few) That's very exciting and depressinfg all at the same time but it's one of those things I would rather not spend time thinking about right now. Classes are fine. I can't complain when they're easy as hell (which, now that I think about it, might not be so easy. Wait...I guess if Hell was a person and since you get sent to Hell for sinning then Hell might be easy.... makes my head hurt). Prom was fine. Could've been better but I liked getting all dressed up. I'm a fairly good dancer (or I like to think so) but it's not my favorite pass-time. I would prefer doing something else. Hanging out with friends was the good part I guess...the pictures, however, were not.

I've been thinking about a new story for a while now and I really want to write it but I'm afraid that I'll get bored with it half way through like I did with Dreaming. Captive was a miracle piece because I had motivation...oh well.

You know what I hate? --I have no idea why I'm bringing this up but I'm bored... I hate people who drive by you and stare at you. Like...full on stare. I'm thinking 'Shouldn't you keep your eyes on the road?' That just seems safer to me. Plus, what do they think they're going to see? I'm not performing some magic show in my car...it's just annoying. Keep your eyes to yourself unless I've taken off my shirt and I'm flashing you --which I wouldn't be doing in the first place.

Here's what else bugs me, although I have to laugh sometimes. When you're at work and answer the phone and people are like, 'Are you open?' and you want to say 'Nope, I just like work so much that I'm here 24/7.' I got the phone yesterday at around 3:30 and we close at 3 but we were cleaning and the woman asks what our hours are so I tell her we close at 3 on Sundays and she's like: 'Soooo you're telling me you're closed?' What the hell? No, I was lying to you.

Maybe I'm just overly sarcastic and rude. I don't mind so much. I like to think of myself as having an abundance of opinion. No internal filters, as my friends say. I'm sure it gets me plenty of haters but it's me and if you can't accept it then go away. I'm not going to spend all my time and energy trying to persuade every person in the world that I'm worth liking. Either you do or you don't. I'm happy with who I am and in the end that's all that matters. I have friends and family so I'm not some lonely old hermit. I guess that's one thing that bothers me, too. People who change to conform to what they think others want in them. I know every person in the world is guilty of doing this at least once in their lives. I tried it once when I moved to a new state. I couldn't make friends in my new school so I tried to change into one of those super prepy types who cares more about guys, clothes, and who just bought the most expensive Prada bag (or whatever). That might've been the worst experience of my life. Why make yourself unhappy to please people who don't give a wit about you in the long run? You gotta find the people who like you for who you are and stick with them. They're the people you can trust and count on. Those are the people who will help you be who you are and not make you feel bad about it. I'm lucky to have found quite a few people just like that. They know who they are and I love them to pieces.

Ever had something you wanted to tell someone so bad that it literally hurts every time you see them and you just can't say it? I'm sure you have. It's killing me. *wrings fists in frustration* It's really important to me but if I told them they wouldn't accept it and I couldn't handle it if they didn't so I'm keeping it a secret. It really sucks and makes me unhappy but I don't have any other choice. I'm too close to them to risk losing them. *sigh*

Now that I've vented I think I'll go find something productive to do in class.... *snort* yeah right, I spend one day working on our projects in class whern we get like a week on them. This class is far too easy for me and a complete waste of my time. Easy A though so I wont complain.

Have a good day my dears!